I need this to hurt more than anythings ever hurt before. Because if it hurts it’s real. If it hurts it meant something was there to cause pain. If it hurts it was something worth remembering there. I need this to scar like nothing’s ever scarred before. I need this. I need it to be the most distinguishable thing about me. I need it. That’s what I need. And if I need it that means I’ve wanted it for a while. All it really means is that I want this one to be the worst there ever will be. Because he was the best that I’ll ever get to have, and that means something.
